its been like 2 years since I wrote? too much stuffs in my head tonight that made me decided to write again...

I fufilled my dream of being a model, but I'm stuck in the middle at the bottom all right. Why?
Reason being (due to chain effect):

1. coz the local market prefer "ang mohs", why?

2. coz the local market thinks local models C.M.I, why?

3. coz the words "models" is being overused and overrated, why?

4. coz you get alot of stupid SHORT FUGLY girls who did a few shoots with those "tiko" photographers in Lingerine or Bikini proudly calling themselves models, girls who did shots for BLOGSHOP do the same, guys who do a few lousy studio shots do the same, and the result? whole street full of "Models"

5. what happened next? the oversea and local clients now thinks that local models suck to the core, so they rather pay and engaged caucasian models, and it all goes back to point 1.

anyway, I got so tired of waiting & waiting I decided to just HUM TAM my port in, if you think I don't have the experience, let me learn on the job, everyone started from scratch don't they? it wouldn't tarnish your reputation if you send me for castings isnt it? why? I must admit, the caucasian models are really good, but "Hey!" I have never felt inferior to them, and I know that for sure no one will think "who is this short ugly guy who walks in for casting", fuck care those FUGLY PPL, but at least give me a chance to prove myself?

sigh~ do I still need to pray that I will make it through this judgement day again? FUCK la!!!

quote of the day:

"she crusies through the big doors like a breeze, yet I can't even find my way through the backdoors...

zee"

flew across the blue sky with zee @{ 2:20 AM }